Well…it has happened.
The waterworks are on full blast. This will make things complicated as I type this…and even more difficult if the tears don’t stop as I help my firstborn back her things.
She is leaving us tomorrow for college. It isn’t a typical college, so she is going with a little time off here and there, but gone for a solid eighteen months…if not longer.
Longer as in not ever coming home to live with us again.
Sure, she will visit…she will maybe even stay for a few weeks if we are lucky.
But I know this young woman pretty well, and her wings are open and ready to soar…
She won’t be coming back to our nest.
My baby bird is leaving us…forever.
Today will be my final day of her being silly and loud and coming down in her pj’s with wild hair, and sitting quietly on the sofa curled up in a ball, as she adjusts to waking up. She will come over to me eventually and wrap her arms around me and say “good morning, Mommy”…she still calls me Mommy…and I am ok with that.
This will be her last day with us a resident in our home…she will always call this place home…but she cannot wait to make a home of her own. I know in my bones that when she is finished college, she may choose to continue with school, but I am pretty certain she will be looking for her own nest to start building.
Her own life.
She has wanted this since as far back as I can remember. To live in the city, and soak up all things fashion, art, theater, and fine dining…to be independent and full of life.
I already know who she is…and she IS that girl.
She will embrace this opportunity with full force…she will make her dreams come true.
We believe in her.
And we will forever be here to love her and support her…there will be bumps in the road, and maybe even a change of course in her plans for the future…we will be here through the good and the bad…always.
So this may be written on a tear stained keyboard, but they are happy tears. My firstborn IS leaving us today, and tomorrow will be one of the hardest days of our lives…but exciting too.
I will not say goodbye to her…
I will say hello.
Hello to this vibrant, fun, talented, motivated young woman who is beginning to write Chapter One of her story…
And I cannot wait to read it.